How are you? I haven’t been coming on tumblr much at all recently, I know. But that’s okay. It brings me solace to know that this small webpage of sanctuary awaits me when I need peace and a side creative outlet in my life.
Right now I have had to shift priorities, and I probably do have time to reblog some things here and there on this tumblr, but I just think its best I take a break for awhile. I am on the computer all day at work, so when I go home I just like to rest in the nontechnical world, if possible…. well, besides my phone, nook, etc. *sigh* I do love my nook though, it has me reading more!
So far from redirecting my priorities and focusing in on my health and physical wellness, I’ve lost roughly 10 pounds in 3 weeks. Thats a little over 3 lbs a week, which I am definitely happy with, since my projected goal was 2 lbs./ week. The reality is that if I really wanted to, I could lost 10 lbs in probably 2 weeks, or even a week in a half if I drove myself to eat very very strictly and work out to my full capacity. I’ve done it in the past, and it doesn’t work. Eventually you burn out and become frustrated, settling back into old habits.
I’ve never needed balance so much more in my life as I do now, and it is relieving to me that I’ve been able to eat healthy (with bad foods in moderation, in small portions, if I have cals left in the day for it), exercising moderately (though truth be told, I could definitely be exercising more — next goal) and still managing to not be hungry or overall frustrated, ravenously craving anything (sure there are cravings, that comes with a change of lifestyle, but I don’t feel overly hungry) nor feeling as if I can’t go on. I can go on in this way, because I feel much better. I eat a lot of veggies, healthy options, cut out simple carbs for complex carbs (whole wheat and oats, etc.) and I still will have ice cream, cake, chips, or whatever suits my fancy once in a while—just not a HUGE portion.
Something I’ve really come to learn is this: true change takes time. There is no quick fix. Most of the time when we can’t accept a slow and steady challenge, it means were in search of a control that manifests in a physical sense, but it rooted in something emotional. I’ve separated out my emotional issues from my physical health (for the most part, I still binge here or there but have only done so once in the past 3 weeks. Its just part of me, and something I deal with). I know this because there are many days I am still depressed, stressed and extremely filled with anxiety.
I’ve realized that in the my past, my apt to decide, “I’m going to lose weight quickly and be happy” is just a decision to try and fix something physical in attempt to fix something mental. And while exercise does help, not being productive or realistic about it doesn’t help in the way a regular, slow and steady schedule of a life style change does. Dropping pounds doesn’t rid of what hurts inside. But changing your life style in a healthy way, can help you learn to appreciate your body, inside and out, and this self appreciation can, in turn, help you to look at life differently and perhaps view life’s challenges in a more positive way, as well.
I will continue on with this journey, tackling my mental states that can bring me down sometimes, but knowing I am going about a physical change (and a mental change, to go with it) in a positive, balanced way does give me a sense of control and consistency that I need — a lasting change.
I hope you all are well, I love that so many have continued to stick around, despite my absence. That means a lot to me. Feel free to share with me how you’re life is going as well. I’d love to hear.